How?

Ever heard of the heartache
That is felt in the bones
Or that choking
Felt in the stomach
Thoughts
That tear the skin.
Or Tiredness
Felt in soul
And Exhaustion
In the brain!

How do i let go!

Ruh

Kya uljhi see hai tumhari bhi ruh
bin maksad, anjaani see
kya dekhte ho tum bhi aati jaani duniya ko
khamosh, bin josh
Kya likhna chahte ho tum bhi
badlon pe apni kahaani
Ik nayi khaani shuru aur ik khatam
aur iss beech mein guzri zindagi..
Kya tum bhi uske maayne dhoondte ho
Bin jaane, bin soche...
kya tum bhi bin alfaaz reh jaate ho
...

Aao mil bethay aaj dost banke!
saaz baaz karein iss ruh ko
kuch tum jaano
kuch hum pehchaane...!



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How to feel time - Write!!

How to feel time - Write!!

The statement above popped up on my Instagram stories. (Sorry i did't even notice who had posted it :( I got focused on reading)

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In the tiniest of corners
hiding from the time
I lay and wonder
Was it worth a dime
Time moved on
and so did people
Years and years of
gaining and losing
Yet Keeping close
and holding on..
Never Letting go
just carrying on..
The struggle goes on
While the shine is long gone
In the tiniest of corners
I lay and wonder...


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Because life isn't fair

Because life isn't fair

You will fall

Repeatedly. 

More than you can think. 

You will get up

Repeatedly. 

More than you can believe. 

A smile sometimes

And some tears too. 

With a shoulder to lean on

And lonely too. 

Holding some hands

Letting go off some. 

Because life isn't fair. 

Where have you gone?

Oh my dearest....

Where have you gone!

The best one. 

I could confide in. 

Trust. 

Talk to. 

Laugh with. 

Or be silent. 

Believing in each other...

And being close

Remember?

The emotions!

The feelings! 

The times...

Good and bad! 

Oh my dearest 

Where have you gone!

Not friend. 

Not enemy. 

Just countless memories. 

How

How do i explain
this silence to my heart
How do i calm
my ever running mind
How do i stop
this soul from feeling
How do i pull myself
together everytime
How do i not miss you
with every shedding tear
How do i not love
when every dream has your smile
That's all what makes life
worthwhile and true
That's what gives faith
someone thinks that way of you too


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aana jana

aana tumhara
ek hawa ke jhonke jaisa
bheeni khushbu
halka ehsaas
yun aakar sehlana
jaise sab dard
door gaye hon bhaag

phir dheere dheere
jana tumhara
laga ik tufaan
aandhi...
jo aankhen khulne na de
dard...
jo naye ghaav sa lage


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I miss you in my life

I miss you in the hustle bustle of daylight 

And i miss you in lonely hours of the night 

I miss you when the sun shines bright 

And I miss you when the sky is lit with moonlight. 

I miss you when my world falls apart 

And i miss you when am happiest in my heart

I miss you when the tears don't stop 

And i miss you when my life seems on top. 

I miss you when i need some direction 

And i miss you when I achieve that perfection

I miss you when i see noone around

And i miss you when I need to feel safe & sound 

Chirping of birds or twinkling of stars

Peace all around Or with million thoughts in war

I miss you with every breath 

I will miss you till my death. 

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I'm nobody

While reading some poetry I came across this one and felt such a connection.
A deep heartfelt connection with nobody. The nobody whom I can feel, sense, talk to, laugh with, cry to, complain, blame, get angry at, take out my frustrations....and share every emotion I live each day.

Nobody - you are  my life, you are me!!

I like to live the life of nobody. Don't make me somebody. Somebody is easily forgotten. Somebody goes away, dies.

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I'M Nobody! Who Are You? 

- Poem by Emily Dickinson

I'm nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too?
Then there's a pair of us -- don't tell!
They'd banish -- you know!

How dreary to be somebody!
How public like a frog
To tell one's name the livelong day
To an admiring bog! 

Emily Dickinson

Be Right

A little hug
In that moment of despair
Is it "I love you"
Or is it "I am sorry"?
A silent company
In the most troubling moment
Is it "I am with you"
Or is it "I have nothing to say"?
A cheer up message
In the saddest moment
Is it "am thinking about you"
Or is it "Get over it"?

Mixed emotions
Mixed behaviors
Is one more right than another
Or
Is one of them plain wrong?

Some make the heart cry
some make the head spin

Be a friend, a lover or life

Just be the reason the life feels right.

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Neend... Bach ke nikal jati hai!

Neend kuch yun bach ke nikal jati hai 

Khamoshi jo kho gayi si lagti hai

Raat ke andhiyare mein 

Kash-ma-kash zehan mein  

Intezaar hai kisi anjane pal ka 

Waqt guzarta chale 

Jaise anjaan koi thaamna chah raha ho 

Thori garmaish, thori thand 

Din kuch palon se lamba

Jism dard se jyada dard mein 

Phir bhi...

Neend bach ke nikal jati hai 

Aur khamoshi kee aawaazein 

Zehan mein dabi bethi hein kahin 

Thaki hue see

Neend ke intezaar mein

Kahin duur khawabon mein dhoob jane ko

Uss khamosh pal mein

Kho jaun jahan mein apne hee khayalon mein

Kuch khamoshi

Kuch aaraam

Kuch khawab

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Oh!

Oh the thumping head
and the crying heart
calm down
for this is not heard
This engulfing sadness
and drowning thoughts
Embrace the loneliness
for that's what is yours'.

Oh silent winds
and the thunderous sunshine
leave me
for this is not felt
The silence that kills
and the emptiness within
Let the clouds scream
and rain wash away the pain.

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Silence

Some words are so empty
they don't mean a thing
and the pain is so deep
it no longer makes you cringe
The silence kills slowly
and promises fade away too
the sky turns grey
and nothing seems to stay
All thoughts flash by in mind
and moments play over again
Every word rings in ear
and shatters everything dear
Time will keep testing
and hurdles popping up too
Yet nothing seems worth a tear
'coz i know you are near
In times like these and more
when silence is the only truth
I will let me be myself
and resign to love we share

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Dilemma

Night after night
I think about you
Without a blink
Just a blank stare
Making sense
And loosing faith
Loving one moment
and dreading another
Exhausted
and broke
Stepping away this moment
and holding tight next
Heart reminds
of promises made
Mind plays games
of heartbreak and sorrows
With dozing eyes
and weeping heart
Lost in time
Yet holding that thread
Searching for meaning

And Not letting loose

Shall I keep promises

Or shall I let it go?

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You are a star

The bright blue sky
and the mirage below
I sat and pondered
but it made me mellow.
looking around
not a soul in sight
lost in your thoughts
I saw some light
twinkling and shining
you shone like a star
That moment in time
I tried to hold you tight
But the star as you were
No one being can own
Meant for many
to brighten and smile
I look up and wonder
and still find you all mine
At any moment in time
I find you there
Hiding behind that sun
or peeping through clouds
Sharing my smiles
and wiping my tears
I sit back and ponder
and swell up with pride


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Kashmakash

Aakhen khuli
par dikhayi na de kuch
Na aayi jo kab se...
uss neend se Jaagun
Saans chali ja rahi hai
par zindagi ruki hai
honth hilte to hein
par koi awaaz na nikli
Dil mein ik boj sa hai
par koi aasun na chalke
sawaal mann mein bahut hein
jawaab milte nahin par..
aawaazein bahut hein yahan pe
sirf khamoshi sunun mein
adhura sa lagta sab kuch yahan pe
kis rah pe nikul
anjaani hein raahein...


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Uss Pal...

कहीं .. उस  बीच के पल में
सोयी आँखों  और  जागती सुबह के बीच में
जब ख़्वाब सच लगते हैं
सुबह की पहली रौशनी में
बंद आखों पे मुस्कुराते हुए
उस पल की तेह में
जब दिल यह दुआ मांगे
बढ़ जाऊं आगे मैं
अपनी ही अनगिनत यादों से
जहाँ हर ख्याल हो आज़ाद
न हो अकेलेपन की उलझन
न हो ख़ामोशी से परेशानी
ऐ पल ले चल मुझे वहां
जहाँ बंद अाखों के ख़्वाब
आँख खुलते ही सच बन जाते हैं

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Somewhere in the middle of that moment
between Sleepy eyes and waking up morning
With the first ray at dawn
When the dreams seem true
They smile at the eyelids.
In between the layers of that moment
This heart prays
To go far ahead
From all the Countless memories
Where every thought is free
No skepticism of loneliness
and Silence is not a problem
O moment, take me there..
where...
Dreams lying on eyelids
Become truth on waking up.

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Empty Randomness

Poking an empty heart
Corners
Sides
And everything…
Pieces held together
But… Falling apart was easier
I believed I knew
I knew how it feels
To cry in the shower
To fall apart in silence
For everything to hurt
Tiredness none can heal
“Blame on” – said a voice
“self inflicted” – said a falling part
Confusion and confidence
Hoping and coping
Existing and Breathing
Living and trying
Choice – had I none
Slow drowning
Into the black hole
Never to come out
What is true happiness
And what is little less sad
Numbness
Silence
Explosion…

…And to Emptiness

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Ek Muskurahat

Tune haq yaad dilaya muskurane ka,
Ab kaisa yeh shaunk hai tera apna chehra chupane ka...
Iss Doobte ko bacha laya tu kinaare pe,
Ab mujhe intezaar hai tere khud ke muskurane ko

तूने हक़ याद दिलाया मुझे मुस्कुराने का
अब कैसा यह शौंक है तेरा अपना ही चेहरा छुपाने का
इस डूबते को बचा लाया तू किनारे पे
अब मुझे इंतज़ार है तेरे खुद के मुस्कुराने का

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kya khoya kya paya

Sochti thi zaroorat thi tere paas hone kee
tere hone se zindagi se faraar hona aasaan tha
woh mein - jisse darr sa lagta tha
woh mein - jise gale na laga payi
kyun nahin mein mein ho pati
kyun nahin mein apne saath reh pati
waqt beeta, khud se hee duur ho gayi
kya tere hone se apne ko kho diya dheere dheere
...
...
sab kuch badal sa gaya
Khud se naraazgi hue ab
Khud se faraar hona namumkin lagta tha
par duur kahin duur nikal gayi mein
mujhe khud ko paane ke liye
tera dheere dheere chale jana
mila na saka mujhe mujh se hee
socho to kya paaya kya khoya
na tu mila na khud ko dhoond payi mein...


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