I am a snow covered white day !!

Thanks Mampi for tagging me on this. I had a great timing imagining and just loved it. I feel much better going through this process.

I was required to write what kind of a day I want to be.
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It is snowing since dawn .. It is white all around. I feel fresh and pure. Feels like I am a renewed day. A day so calm. A day so soothing. Not many cars came on road in the morning. All life forms decided to cuddle their loved ones and feel warm. I felt on top of cloud nine when some people looked out of their windows and said - Oh! What a beautiful day. (Who doesn't like praise!! *wide smiles*)

Few shiny rays of sun are trying to peek through the clouds and add to my beauty. Kids have decided to come out and play with snow and enjoy me - "the beautiful day". I am liking it. These giggling kids add to the joy of their parents and all passers  by and I feel great when they smile and look happy.  The chilly air has turned every one's nose red. They are enjoying and I am glad to be a day they would remember.

Time is moving. The play is about to end. It's getting chillier..i so wish i could be longer - but no...i live in a cycle of 24 hrs and this is the time i am given to spread smiles and wipe some tears. I am just a day. I am going into darkness now but would be back again to add to brightness and life.

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I would like to tag ~nm, Purplexia, PG, Swati and Monika on this.
Hope you all enjoy imagining what kind of a day you want to be.

Get Set Goooo...

I am home today. Usually I am home every tuesday as my daughter doesn't go to day care on tuesdays and one of us needs to be home to look after her. Morning went into physiotherapy sitting - I have been having quite a lot of back pain ever since I had my surgery. And also it gets worse when i carry Prisha up and down stairs few times. So the doctor advised physiotherapy.
I have noticed that doctors here have quite bookish knowledge - just when my physiotherapist was about to start , she got confused about which side should i lie down on - so she went back to her computer , looked there at the screen and came back asking me to lie down on left side. It was quite weird. She anyway had to repeat the same process on both sides and which side first didnt sound like anything to cause confusion. And weirdest of all is that she has done this all the 4 times I have visited her so far. Everytime she has to check on computer. I find it both weird and funny. Anyway, she helps me feel better, so no complains!! :)

I just hope these sittings start giving some results now.
I am also forcing myself into stepping on my "stepper" for atleast few minutes everyday now. There are so many reasons- weight, legs pain, back pain - even if it helps in one of these - I would be more than glad. *sigh*

I started it yesterday only. Five minutes on it and I was half dead - uhh thats almost no stamina. I felt ashamed at myself. So I went on for 5 more minutes. 10 in all isnt bad for first day - right? This morning also I stepped on for 5 minutes. Am planning to continue - the question is how long :)

I would be travelling back home to India in November and want to get rid of all these pains and shed off some extra layes by then. Keeping my fingers crossed !!

I am back !!

I am back !!

Atleast that's what I feel at the moment. :)
I have been reading all your posts - all of them left some mark in one way or the other - food for thought from some, smiles from others, tasty ideas from few more and obviously a push to go back to blogging world from all of them !!

Thanks to all of you for your inspirations and supportive words while I was lost in my "undefined" mode.

And sorry for not leaving back any comments while I visited your blogs to get a sneak preview of what's happening in your lives.

Such phases are quite a regular part of my life. I give up on my likes, i dont feel like doing anything and feel sad and low all the time. But I come back bubbly and all smiling (that's what i am doing now).
After reading all your blogs I had already got a feeling how you all have created a strong emotional bond with each other and support each other - come what may. It gives such a wonderful boost to my mind and heart to have such people in your life. And now I also feel lucky enough to have such a bonding with some of you (though it is more of one sided as of now - i have been selfish mean person in this aspect - never put any effort to leave few charming words to cheer you up) I would work on this lovely relationship and nourish it too!

How our life gets such twists and turns- it's such a strange roller coaster ride. And it keeps on going - never stops - obviously there would be hiccups every now and then. But i am glad i am at highs also and can enjoy while i am there. Suddenly everything seems to have fallen in place (touchwood). Deep inside i am still complaining about million other things but still its going pretty smooth - work, home, baby, relationships, friends, etc etc etc. I wish this smooth ride continues for sometime. I will do my best to be at this level for sometime for I know the roller coaster has to go down someday but then again it has to come back up.

Not up for it

Just so you all know the reason for my absence from blog world - ofcourse besides surgery - I just do not feel like writing. I started writing around 20 times...wrote 2-3 lines or sometimes few more but just didn't feel like doing it. I don't know why I am not up for it these days. I have no explanation.

I read other blogs in my google reader, I even read all the comments and messages friends have left on my blog - but i just didn't feel like replying. I forced myself to do so but i just - plain and simple - could not do so.

 

Thanks to all of you who have been remembering me - Hopefully I would be back soon.

 

Till then - happy writing !

Ups and Downs

I am still in recovery phase after the surgery. Infactthe cylce seems to be mving the other way round. I was feeeling quite fit anf fine for 2 days after surgery (yet was not allowed to do any house hold chores) But after 2 days, i started feeling the after effects of loosing that organ - constant indigestion, nausea, tiredness, pain, etc etc etc. Though I am eating only the simplest *satvik* food I can :) yet the stomach refuses to accept that.(Guess its the used to such simple food - it is demanding some dosage of chilli and spices) I did give it some servings of that too - once or twice. But nothing is helping. Sometimes i feel as If I am totally fine and other times i feel strange - some weird feeling in stomach is continuing.

But nevertheless, the pampering at home is going full time and I am enjoying it. As soon as I dont feel like doing something- i just have to mention in most pleasing accent and tone - oh i had a surgery just last week *wink*.

I am home for one more week now - hopefully I should be better by the end of it.

Almost back in action

I had been getting these severe pain attacks in my upper abdomen and back. Repeated attacks and subsequent mid-night visits to doctors revealed that I have stones in my gall bladder. Having ultra sounds, Meeting surgeon, getting blood tests done - everything happened in a blink. Wednesday afternoon the doctor tell me that I need to be operated the day after - ie; thursday. And before I would even prepare, it was all done.

Wednesday at around 16:30 i got to know that next morning I have to go for the surgery. I spoke to my hubby and we decided that I should go for itand not wait any longer. I quickly talked to my manager and emailed/informed others i considered need to know. Passed on details of my project to my colleague for taking over while i am away. Explained to each one who came surprised as to how can it happen so suddenly. By the time I could wrap up all this, it was around 5:45. I left for home. My friend was with me. It felt as If I had some freedom to eat/drink anything I feel like as who knows how many days after that I would not be able to have all those. SO I picked up my favorite coffee and muffin at starbucks. Reached home, the ever popular discussion - "what to have for dinner" went on for few hours. Finally we went out for some finger food instead. I had lots to do at home and was getting panicky with every passing minute. I had to pack up the bag for hospital, clean up the house so hubby doesnt have to do it for next few days, iron clothes esp those of my little one. By the time I could finish it all, it was past midnight and I decided to go for sleep. I had to wake up early morning to have some light breakfast eg; biscuits/tea. Morning also went by little busy with calls at home and last minute things at home. We dropped our lil one at day care. I was to be in hospital at 11. After couple of blood tests, question-answer rounds, I was escorted to my room. I was told that I am next in line after the surgery that was going on in operation theater at that moment - so that meant max 1.5 hrs to go. I laid down, talked to my hubby and started reading a book. And soon came the nurse to prepare me for the surgery. Injections, glucose, other thousand monitors, talks with surgeons and time to fall in deep sleep. It was late in the evening when I came back to senses(though quite little I must say - i could hardly remain awake) I slept through the night till late next morning. After a check up with doctor, I was declared fine enough to go home and recover there. So i was home by late afternoon - watching TV, reading books, enjoying pampering :) And it's still going onnnnnnnnn........ :)

Can anyone guess what was the first thing I did when I came back home :)
I stood on the scales to see if losing one organ has left me any lighter - **grin** But to my shock - it was much higher than I had left home the day before. I blamed it all on 20 bottles of glucose they injected in me. (it's a BIG relief if you can blame your weight gain on something or someone)

Ok- so am still recovering, relaxing, getting bored at times, reading and getting pampered!!

Update

I am home recovering from a surgery. Would write details soon. Thanks to all of u who have been waiting.