Why do I write? It's not that I want people to think I am smart, or even that I am a good writer. I write because I want to end my loneliness.
-Jonathan Safran Foer
This is exactly the reason i am writing today. The feeling of loneliness is like overcast today. Thick dark clouds with no silver lining visible. I can keep looking up but only get to see darkness all around. Its a weird feeling. Something i am finding very difficult to put in words.
It's like being a complete stranger standing amongst million people where noone is talking to you. And noone seems interested either. And you too don't want to make an effort. It's the killing silence around. It's being unable to find solace in anything you thought you liked or enjoyed once. It's the emptiness.
It's all these together yet none of these.
It's like a countless friends on social media but noone to talk. It's like your phone full of contact numbers but none you can call. It's like nothing making sense from outside but sounds most important too. It's utter nonsense at times and it's a matter of life and death too.
Complicated to the core!