Thursday, February 9, 2017

Tu jaaney na...

TU JAANE NA - ALI ZAFAR
Album - Jhoom

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan, chandani hai raatein

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan, chandani hai raatein

Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Mere dil ki zubaan

Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na,

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Raat bhar betha main sochu yahin
Meri zindagi mein tu hai ki nahi

Teri yaad aati hai, dil ko satati hai
Teri yaad aati hai, dil ko satati hai
Ab jaaun main kahaan…
Jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein

Lage sara jag soona soona mujhe
Tere bina zindagi kategi kaise
Lage sara jag soona soona mujhe
Tere bina zindagi kategi kaise
Ab aaja piya na jaye jiya
Ab aaja piya na jaye jiya
Mujhe le chal tu apne jahaan

Jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan chandani hai raatein

Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Mere dil ki zubaan…

Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na
Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na



Read more: http://www.lyricsmint.com/2011/02/tu-jaanay-na-mere-dil-ki-baate-lyrics.html

Altschmerz

Altschmerz


Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had—the same boring flaws and anxieties you’ve been gnawing on for years, which leaves them soggy and tasteless and inert, with nothing interesting left to think about, nothing left to do but spit them out and wander off to the backyard, ready to dig up some fresher pain you might have buried long ago.

Whats in your head?

Monsters don't sleep under your bed, they reside in your head. 

Monday, January 2, 2017

Saudade

Saudade is a word that came from Portuguese, Galician and Spanish. It best describes a deep emotional state of nostalgia and melancholy. It is the extreme longing for an absent something or someone you love. Additionally, saudade usually often carries a repressed knowledge and worries that someone or something may never return.
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 "Memory of something with a strong desire for it."




Friday, December 2, 2016

Mixed

In a single day I experience varied emotions - happy, sad, tense, smiling, crying, laughing, annoyed. It's all what makes my day. The same circumstance can trigger a different mood each day.
It's the same as relationships. I feel all such extreme emotions with respect to people too. In a single day i will feel full of love for them and I would also get awfully upset with them. Imagine this level of variation - I can go from - being willing to give my life for someone to taking their life - kind-of-state - in a matter of few hours....AND NO - i have never actually gone that far as to hit or harm anyone. 

"From the outside looking in, it's hard to understand. 
From the inside looking out, it's hard to explain." 

That's how I have been for along time now. I would feel varied emotions sometimes surprising even myself. If i felt sad i could not just snap out of it and start feeling better because i could not pin-point a reason for that. This bothered me even more. Still does! I feel this is some kind of problem. It's hard to explain. And it's even harder to understand.

I feel the number of people suffering from such issues is huge - perhaps much higher than we can anticipate. And worse is that half of them don't even get to know whats going on! Everyone around keeps telling them to cheer up and stop being what they are going through.
I can very well relate to this. Family and friends say all motivating things to make me feel good besides showing me that they are with me and supporting me. It helps but briefly. At times it works opposite as well. That - do this do that - kind of pep talk is what i detest the most. That makes me feel inadequate. Why do they assume i wouldn't have tried or done anything at all!
And I am at loss of words ...like many times before.
And my mixed thoughts fail to sort themselves out to make sense.
And I feel lost
I feel stuck
I feel nowhere

Thursday, October 27, 2016

Trance

HELLO!
Can you hear me?
Am falling...
falling in a trance
unconscious ...
involuntarily
staring in oblivion
at that chaos
numb toes
hypnotic state
dazed mind
calm waters
silent oppression


where spirits start to speak