Friday, March 24, 2017

Ruh


Kya uljhi see hai tumhari bhi ruh
bin maksad, anjaani see
kya dekhte ho tum bhi aati jaani duniya ko
khamosh, bin josh
Kya likhna chahte ho tum bhi
badlon pe apni kahaani
Ik nayi khaani shuru aur ik khatam
aur iss beech mein guzri zindagi..
Kya tum bhi uske maayne dhoondte ho
Bin jaane, bin soche...
kya tum bhi bin alfaaz reh jaate ho
...

Aao mil bethay aaj dost banke!
saaz baaz karein iss ruh ko
kuch tum jaano
kuch hum pehchaane...!



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© 2017 Life Begins. Please DO NOT COPY

Thursday, March 23, 2017

How to feel time - Write!!

How to feel time - Write!!

The statement above popped up on my Instagram stories. (Sorry i did't even notice who had posted it :( I got focused on reading)

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In the tiniest of corners
hiding from the time
I lay and wonder
Was it worth a dime
Time moved on
and so did people
Years and years of
gaining and losing
Yet Keeping close
and holding on..
Never Letting go
just carrying on..
The struggle goes on
While the shine is long gone
In the tiniest of corners
I lay and wonder...


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© 2017 Life Begins. Please DO NOT COPY

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Stuck

"...I am caught between a strong mind and a fragile heart"

It's a very tough place to be in. It hurts like hell and you can only get it if you experience it. No it has nothing to do with anyone else's presence or absence in life. It's like chasing something you are not even sure exists. It's like trying to hold tight some fragrant air. It's like constantly fighting with yourself. 

Longing for something which is far from existence. Love so strong and deep that it doesn't let you sleep. The fear of falling asleep and dreaming... 
Dreaming of nothingness! 

Strong mind keeps pulling you back with all the reasoning and facts. Heart makes you cry and it makes you laugh and at times it makes you embarrass yourself. Its a continuous tug of war. 

In all this, I struggle to find my own moment where none of this matters. Why am i obligated to sit back and smile and let everything happening around pile up on me. 

Perhaps the problem is not in the depth of love i feel. Its having no control over the intensity of the feeling and no control over who and what i feel that for!

How should i spend my life? Doubting? Questioning? Regretting? Hating? Loving? Braving it all? Ignoring? Letting go? 

I know I don't want to get stuck. So i will live on. I know it will get exhausting at times. I would still feel like giving up and will just lie down. But i know i will rise. The love will stay. And the love - however tough & heavy it keeps getting - will keep me alive. 

Monday, March 6, 2017

Missing

I wonder - often - if I am the only one feeling a certain way - and that too so strongly.
I choose to believe - I am not the only one. 

Like that feeling of missing someone or something. Missing so strongly that you want to scream your heart out. I don't know if any pain is involved in that emotion. Its just blank. Probably that void is what makes it worse. 

It's that extremely powerful desire to be somewhere or with someone. Perhaps its just that longing for comfort...be it of being at a certain place or with someone close.


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I wrote this few days back. And The feeling hasn't ceased to exist as yet. And i have no further words to write. So I will leave it at this.

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Tu jaaney na...

TU JAANE NA - ALI ZAFAR
Album - Jhoom

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan, chandani hai raatein

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan, chandani hai raatein

Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Mere dil ki zubaan

Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na,

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Raat bhar betha main sochu yahin
Meri zindagi mein tu hai ki nahi

Teri yaad aati hai, dil ko satati hai
Teri yaad aati hai, dil ko satati hai
Ab jaaun main kahaan…
Jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein

Lage sara jag soona soona mujhe
Tere bina zindagi kategi kaise
Lage sara jag soona soona mujhe
Tere bina zindagi kategi kaise
Ab aaja piya na jaye jiya
Ab aaja piya na jaye jiya
Mujhe le chal tu apne jahaan

Jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na, jaanu na

Tu jaanay na, mere dil ki baatein
Hai tu kahaan chandani hai raatein

Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Sara jag jaane hai, tu hi na maane hai
Mere dil ki zubaan…

Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na
Jaane na, jaane na, jaane na, jaane na



Read more: http://www.lyricsmint.com/2011/02/tu-jaanay-na-mere-dil-ki-baate-lyrics.html

Altschmerz

Altschmerz


Weariness with the same old issues that you’ve always had—the same boring flaws and anxieties you’ve been gnawing on for years, which leaves them soggy and tasteless and inert, with nothing interesting left to think about, nothing left to do but spit them out and wander off to the backyard, ready to dig up some fresher pain you might have buried long ago.

Whats in your head?

Monsters don't sleep under your bed, they reside in your head.