Tuesday, February 13, 2018

To you...

Dear unknown,

There are countless random things that come to my mind and i feel i must share with you. Some i remember and some i forget after that moment is passed. Some good some bad. Sometimes those are just mundane daily life things.  You know like something i do, or something i watch, or just music. There is a different charm in sharing random stuff with you, even if it bores you to death - which probably it might do at times.  It's a strange phase in my life. I am not sure i should be happy or sad, should i be shedding tears or just laugh and smile on random moments of joy, Or should i just ignore and behave like nothing has changed in life!
Which one of these reactions will be normal?
What is right way to behave? 

And then arises the ques, should i reach out to people for help and guidance and advise or decide what feels right to me! What if my decisions are not the right ones? What if i am only thinking one aspect and not all? 
There are countless such "What - ifs.." which come to my mind every other minute.
What? How? When? ...too many unanswered questions out there!
Too many decisions to make!
Too much action to be taken!
Too much thinking to be done!

I wish I could sit together so I say out all loud to you. So i could hear back your thoughts.
Or may be we could just sit and have coffee in silence.
Sometimes!

Keeping the faith!
Me

Monday, February 12, 2018

When Snow flakes bring a message

For months, i am having major reading and writing block. I have been itching to write - something... anything - for a very long time ...but nothing would come out. No words, no inspiration, no ideas, no emotions. It's either been blank or too chaotic to sort out and give it any form. Infact no communication or sharing of thoughts has been happening for last few weeks. Some friends have been trying to reach out and talk - with little success. Some others stopped bothering or making an effort. Some i expected to be around and to go that extra mile and make some effort but in vain...and eventual pain. All that pushed me further inside the layers i had been building around already. Life became loaded with feelings of hurt, sadness and detachment.

This morning was different.

As i got down from bus to walk to the office, it started snowing. Those light tiny puffs of cotton falling from sky. I looked up and smiled. As much as i hate walking in rain, its completely opposite feeling in snow. I walked slowly. Smiling. And felt as if some load is being lifted off my chest. Those tiny soft flakes made my heart feel lighter. I wonder, how we keep looking for comfort in our loved ones and expecting them to be there. While the comfort can come in any form, from anywhere at any time. Universe sends signals in many ways! May be this is it!

May be its time to Let go!
Let go of old thoughts
Let go of the hurt
Let go of expectations
Let go of fears
Let go of anger
Let go of people i don't feel connected to
Let go of everything that's not letting me rise

The times now need me to focus. Prioritize and Focus!

Just look up, let go and feel light and bright!

Thursday, December 14, 2017

How?

Ever heard of the heartache
That is felt in the bones
Or that choking
Felt in the stomach
Thoughts
That tear the skin.
Or Tiredness
Felt in soul
And Exhaustion
In the brain!

How do i let go!

Thursday, December 7, 2017

Time for change

“It is not the strongest who survives, neither the smartest,
but the one who copes best with changes”.

~Darwin

Thursday, July 6, 2017

What...Why...

Ponder
And wonder
What, Why...
of life
Of relationships
Of thoughts shared
and those not said
Of emotions felt
Of dreams stitched
Of hopes
and of fears
Of giving up
Or waiting just a little more
Of  letting go
Or trying once more
...
Questions not asked
Answers that will never come



Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Bhuul gaye

Khud se milna milana bhul gae


ḳhud se milnā milānā bhuul ga.e
log apnā Thikānā bhuul ga.e
rañg hī se fareb khāte raheñ
ḳhushbueñ āzmānā bhuul ga.e
tere jaate hī ye huā mahsūs
aa.ine jagmagānā bhuul ga.e
jaane kis haal meñ haiñ kaise haiñ
ham jinheñ yaad aanā bhuul ga.e
paar utar to ga.e sabhī lekin
sāhiloñ par ḳhazāna bhuul ga.e
dostī bandagī vafā-o-ḳhulūs
ham ye sham.eñ jalānā bhuul ga.e

Source : rekhta.org