The complaining me !!

Just today i realised how much i complain all the time.
I complain about everything. I keep blaiming my luck (and for many of them HD too ) for everything that goes wrong or anything good that doesn't happen.

Everytime someone gets or does something good in life..i feel so jealous (well, with everyone i don't mean just anyone on this earth..i mean some people only) I start feeling how unlucky I am and how fortunate they are...why don't i ever get anything like this. But then a thought stuck me, do i even put efforts for getting those things? Whosoever has got something of whom  i get jealous has actually put in efforts to get them..they have shown interest, taken out the time to work on them and then only enjoyed the outcome. i just keep complaining for whetever i dont get. I rarely put in efforts.

when i have th opportunity to work, i don't do anything and when the opportunity goes away, i start complaining. Ahh...am  feeling so damn idiot and loser today. It's all my fault for whatever i havent achieved in life. Ah see...here i go again..this time blaiming myself.... i always find someone to put blame on. So i can prove myself to be the innocent one, the victimised one.

I gotto change. Change this way of thinking. Change the way i act. Change the way i work. Change the way i have lived so far.

I have to start workiing. To put in efforts. To take out time for things i like. To organise myself.
I need to nurture those basic management skills.

And first of all, STOP COMPLAINING !!