Don't Sweat the Small Stuff!!

A friend of mine sent this link to me yesterday and I felt I must share it further. A war has been going on in my mind for sometime now - The war between home and work. And I am at loss thinking how to prioritise. I feel guilty from both sides. So many times I feel such a loser for not being able to handle even one side well. But then all these are phases and the thought that most working moms go through this - adds to my comfort. So I am not the only one. I am not the only confused mom. I am not the only mom who is living with this ongoing struggle.

Well - the following article helped me. It gave me a feeling of comfort. It convinced me that I should choose what matters to me the most. I should be the one to decide not the surroundings. I should do as I wish to and not bother about the world. Decide on what matters to me the most. Life is not an Emergency Room. I should learn to differentiate between Urgent things, Important Things and Urgent-Important things.

It's a small article but left an impact in it's own way - atleast a lot on me.

Read on ...

Don't Sweat the Small Stuff!

Article courtesy - http://www.extensor.co.uk

Off Load

OK another one of world famous problems...which i guess each of us esp women have atleast for sometime.

Unfortunately Retail Therapy does not help with this one. Infact the chances are opposite here. Retail therapy can make it worse if followed too much for extended hours.

I have been struggling with this one for around 2 years now. The intensity is low and high - now and then. And these days the intensity is on higher side - owing to long continuous working hours and then hours of travelling back and forth home-office. There is one more high impact reason for high intensity these days.

There was a friend of mine here and we used to sit very near to each othere here in office. She also being indian - we would always talk in hindi (You might think - so what? well - It's of special mention because people around speak either Dutch or English and noone else besides us knows hindi ) We would keep on talking while working....we would go out together for lunches or shopping. There being no other female in our team and no other indian in our group - we spent lot of time together. (ok ok that does not mean we never mingled with anyone else) Also we both had to travel same direction, to same last station and at same time. So - quite simple - we were together more than 10 hours a day. But 2 months back she got married and moved to another country to join her husband.

Ok now back to actual story ( oh no how can I call such a serious situation just a story : ) As one can imagine, I don't have anyone else to talk (as in hindi and that too gossip and things just about anything - u know how girls talk) Also i dont go out as often as I used to. SO as a result I am sitting right here on my chair for hours. I come to office and sit here and start working. Only times i get up is to fetch tea/coffee or other obvious reason I am sure I don't need to mention. Besides that; work here, lunch here, any phone calls here. Once in a week or 10 days I go out like this one two days back.

Hmm..that's a story stretched too far now ...
I am not going to keep the secret anymore. Here it is... BACKACHES

All this has resulted in severe backache - shoulder aches and even chest pains. All because of not enough movements. I had been having backaches ever since my pregnancy. Apparently this is also one of the hidden bonuses you get when you are in IT industry that too a developer. Till it was only backache I was somehow dealing with it. But now for around 2 months, i had been having severe pain in my chest too. Obviously million people - million opinions made me believe it can be because of Acidity. But as it continued - i kept a close vigil and decided against that. No it was not acidity. It was something else. Somedays it would be so severe that I would not even be able to bend 10 degrees. I would not be able to lie down. Few times I would not even be able to breathe well. So a visit to the GP landed me up in physiotherapy clinic. I wasn't too excited about it as i had been to that for around 2 months last year - all in vain. Yet i decided to give it a try. Now as I live far away from office, i decided to look for some physiotherapist near office only so i can go during lunchtime or so and don't have to take days off. ANd God - i was damn lucky. Not only did i find the clinic just 10 minutes walking distance from office- also I found a genious physiotherapist. My chest pain went away right after first session of 15 minutes. Second visit released loads of tension from shoulder and neck part.

It actually feels like some heavy load is off my back. Only those who have suffered from backpain can understand how it is to feel day without any sort of backpain.

So far I have attended only two sessions and I am sure 3-4 more and I would not remember any backpains. It's amazing how some twists and turns he did on my body took away all the stress. And the manipulations ( as they call it) by pressing some points here and there can make the movements so much more easy.

So anyone suffering from backaches or anything of that sort - please try Physiotherapy, Chiropractice or Manual therapy or a combination if you can find out.

For today - I am really thankful and glad. A Huge load is off my back!!

Trauma of First Degree!!

After my retail therapy yesterday - i was all excited and also as it was slightly cold I decided to wear my new jacket on my way back home . Ok so i took out tags from all the clothes i had bought, put them in one smaller bag and wore the new jacket and set out for bus stop. I met a collague in the elevator - we talked and walked in our own directions after byes and good evening wishes. Little did i knew at that time how the coming evening was going to be. I walked to the bus stop, stood there waiting for the bus. Secretely i was trying to look at my reflection in the glass sides of the bus stop to see how i was looking in my new jacket and as i turned........

The guy standing there asked me a question - "Is your jacket new?" My heart skipped few beats - i was confused and thinking is it so nice and looking so new? Or Did he see me admiring it in the reflection in the glass sides? Or is there something wrong with it? Inspite of all these million questions popping up in my mind - i replied in most calm and composed way - " Yes - it is."

And guess what - He replied - " There is a price tag hanging there - you forgot to take it off"

OH MY GOD !! I wished I could vanish somehow. I am sure i would have turned red in embarrassment. Not only had it a tag hanging but it also revealed that i bought it in sale at a very low price. Regaining my composure and pulling out the tag instantly I replied in a split second - "Oh - Thank you. I was feeling cold, so I just bought it." (Ahh..that sounded like a relief to me and convincing reply to him) So he just said "Oh - I see " and turned away.

Oh I could not stand there. I felt glances of everyone around fixed on me. But I maintained my looks of not even giving a damn thought about it. Inside me were more doubts and restlessness growing up. I started to feel there were more tags hanging and I am still standing with them on. I wished I could take off the jacket and check it thoroughly. But my external gestures were so convincing about me not bothering about it at all that I felt weird taking off the jacket and checking it for more tags.

And as if I hadn't had enough - the bus was late. I had to stand and pretend absolutely normal for next 10 minutes(believe me it felt like 10 hours). But when the bus came, i took it and guess what - Got down at the next stop. I waited for that bus to go away. Took out my jacket and scrutinized it like it might have hidden jewels inside hidden pockets. Only after 10 minutes of detailed study - i was convinced and put it back.

Because of this trauma of hanging tags - i not only missed my next bus but train too. So it took me long time to reach back home.

And obviously I was really traumatised. This morning when i left home. I got those thoughts back- what if what I am wearing today also has some tag hanging.I kept looking side to side if I could see something. I tried to look at my reflection in the glasses on the metro stop and train window. Every look and stare from anyone around made me think there was some tag hanging somewhere on me.

It's only when i reached office- looked on all sides in the big mirror in the ladies room, I felt relieved.

I hope the trauma is over!!

Therapy - Just like that!

A Retail Therapy as Monika puts it is indeed the best therapy ever :) All these countless therapists should just remember one standard therapy for all ailments.

This therapy helps boost your morale when you are feeling low, it even cheers you up when you are sad, it motivates when you are depressed, it relaxes you when you are stressed and it even balances your state of mind when you are over - excited about something - be it some success, some achievement or anything like that. So basically this therapy befits every state of mind.

Today was one such day for me. I had been feeling stressed out for few days now. But since yesterday i am feeling elated for no reason in particular. I listened to music all through my way home yesterday evening. I went home and even before I could think of dinner - i danced with my little girl. I sounded all chirpy and joyful. I could feel it myself too. But I could not make out the reason and i didn't bother either. I finished some long pending household work like drying 2 lots of wash lying there for 2 days, altering few of my clothes by hand sewing, clearing up mess in the bedroom, some face care, potty training for Prisha. I spent some good time with my dolly. I even managed to watch some TV and also sleep on time. All these things on the same evening has been sounding impossible to me till now. (Imagine all this done between 7:30 and 11 PM and this includes preparing dinner and having it too)

Now the simple doubt arising can be - how does retail therapy fit in here? ( As i didn't mention any done yesterday)

I was happy for no reason yesterday and it continued today. So out of that continued joy and happiness and excitement I went out at lunch time and just popped into a store to look if there was something new. Unconsciously I knew I am going there to come out with something new.

And obviously no prizes for any guesses now - I did come out with huge bag full :) WOW - what a feeling I had!! I was walking back to office all content with my new possessions - smiling wide and lost in my own thoughts ( I am sure people on the way must have declared me some kind of nut)

I came back and felt all energetic to start my work full gear. Inbetween I glanced inside the bags few times - smiled and got back to work. And out of this joy - I opened notepad and started writing this post ( Now that might not be good result of the therapy - as now my work is again sidelined) Yet its good because finally there would be some action on my blog.

So Ladies and Gentlemen - Go ahead - Indulge in some Retail Therapy today - Just Like that !!

Strasbourg - France

We had taken last week off - just a short summer vacation kinds and we decided to go to Strasbourg in France. Actually it was recommended by a friend of mine. And....God - it was a beautiful city. Infact the whole drive of 5.30 hours(we took 7 hrs) was full of beauty.

It's a city on the border of France and Germany. It's in the Alsace Region in the northeast France. And it is one of the largest cities in the country. This city has many major European Union Institutions. ANd It also has one of the largest ports on River Rhine. The city center of Strasbourg is a World Heritage Site - the first oen to get that recognition. And honestly - it was every inch worth it :) Please go here for all the details on this wonderful city.
Now - Let me take you also on this journey with a series of pictures.

On the way to Strasbourg (Somewhere in Belgium)

Prisha during a break for lunch

Again the route

The beautiful fields

More of nature

And more...

One our first day morning - ready to explore the city. We went for walks in the Petite France Area every day and the walks lasted whole day :) Our only reason to come back to hotel was either Prisha falling asleep or it was late in the night (If we dont get back to hotel - how would we be able to come back to those beautiful surroundings again next day)

Night time Barrage Vauban

The "totally out of the world combo" Expresso + coffee ice cream + freshly baked(warm)coffee-caramel cake( iloved it so much that i had it almost every single day :)

River Ill

Prisha's favorite - the car in the merry go round :) She was taken here every day (Courtesy her dad)

The Cathederal

The famous Maison des tanneurs

Prisha ready for the day long walk on the river banks Musée d'Art moderne et contemporain is among the largest museums of its kind in France

Ps: The pictures are not of a very good quality as our actual camera broke down sometime ago and we had to do away with this small version. And also the enroute pics are from inside the car moving at around 130km/h.

Uhh...killer

This is absolutely irritating.

(Ok...i write only when something starts bugging me a lot - so this place is mainly meant for rants and complaints and irritations - Writing here is my way of letting out all that)

How do people learn the art of getting things done their own way only and yet they are the ones who complain non-stop about how they have to agree to everyone and have no say in what they do. Whereas actually the truth is that very subtlely and calmly just put across what they want and usually their style gets them that. The things can be small but what-the-heck , they get it done their own way. Once you give an opposite view or try to reject that - there goes the subtle-pushing-tactic. I hate it. I hate to deal with such situation. And at other occasion they would want just like you have been asking a day before and again they want it their way. it's so damn annoying. And its a killer if that person is a close friend of you. It upsets you but yet to dont say as word as a respect for "YOUR" friend. But i am sure they don't think the same. (Else I could have noticed some change few times atleast) May be its my fault. I being a good freind should have told her about this annoying habit and given a chance to realise and perhaps improve. But what a pain???? Why should I be the one to first go through that irritating moment of silent acceptance and then gain all the more irritation back for pointing it out. Uhh...I hate it. Again i hate it. (Does writing it over and over again lessen it in anyway??? )

Of this and that

Everyday while I am at work, i get an urge to write and post something. Something happens or I do something which sounds like perfect and apt to be written down about. I kind of make the whole write up in my mind too. So everyday I almost know what to write. But it's kind of tough to blog while at work. I quickly read some posts and try to leave a comment whenever possible. So it's not blocked or anything but just that it does not sound appropriate to be blogging at work. Also work is so busy for few days now that i hardly get any time to do so even if "it being appropriate or not" was not the point.
Well now as anyone would simply say - "then why don't you do it at home?"
I wouldn't like to go into the same old series of cribbing about household work, baby, travel etc etc etc OR how I am already a super woman juggling so many things. I would not blame it all on any of those. The truth is I do am able to take out time to sit and net surf and read some blogs. So ofcourse I can take out time to write too. And I do so too. But the problem is - as soon I sit down to write..nothing comes to mind, I am suddenly lost of words. Everything that comes to mind sounds either stupid or has faded away as a split second thought.No ideas flow, no words take shape - i find it all quite strange.
I sit there wondering - how thoughts and ideas take shape in our mind and vanish if we don't capture them in some other concrete form right then and there. That reminds me of childhood days and all the big dreams we had. How everything seemed so different then. How it all felt so achievable. The plans seemed to fall perfectly in place. But as we grew - it all started to fade away and conditions crept in slowly. The whole plan seemed such a misfit. The right actions ( as least we thought they were right) sounded so not-right. We were clueless. The dreams were no longer as they used to be. Childhood dreams started sounding stupid. No idea made any more sense. No new ideas come up when we actually sit down to think and ponder.
How dreams take different shapes as we grow. How it all sounds so perfect once and totally absurd next time you think over it. How our mind plays such games. How we convince ourselves against our very own best idea. How conditions and situations influence our thoughts so much. How we try to fit our dreams in the most comfortable and available situations. The innocent and straight-from-heart ideas have no place in this grown up world. Unconsciously our mind thinks only on the lines of how the world would take it as.
The similar happened to my blog. My sole intention was to put in words what goes on in my mind - notice MY Mind!! But gradually i realised my posts were getting influenced by the readers. And it wasn't a conscious move. It just happened. I noticed it when i saw myself using words like - You, the readers, the guests here, etc etc etc. This is how environment moulds our thougts. There is no right or wrong here. Writing as conversation or just as a let-out is equally good. Its just the feeling. The amazing part is only that there is something that secretly slides in our mind cells and gives all that comes out from there a new shape.

PS: I know this post has some weird flow. Please bear with me. I just wrote what came up.

What can make one feel so ...!!

What a wonderful feeling :)

Can anyone guess why? I think most fellow females would give a correct answer to it. They know what can make a women feel so good :)

Yes...YOU ARE RIGHT (even if you were not - don't worry...I know you would surely agree once you know the answer. If not, i understand there can be more things in life to make you feel good)

We have this Organization Development kind of site here in our company where every employees' details and career plan are added. And this is supposedly a very useful tool for tracking your own personal career growth. Ok so our internal communications department felt it was quite important to have everyone's picture there so as to provide visibility and recognition. (Though i know this is one more tactic to get more people to login to that site - if not for their own career plan - atleast for looking at other faces TEEHEE)

Ok so official plan was made for this. Days were finalised. Everyone got a time slot. (Are you still guessing - for what?? )Well...for photo shoot. Yes...some apparently famous professional photographer was brought in to take portrait photos of us. my time slot was today. We were just advised to dress up business like atleast from waist up ..hehe ( Imagine...some street Bermudas below and a Dolce-Gabbana Jacket on top) Ok ok. So I tried to dress up well for today. (No Dolce-Gabbana or Christian Dior outfit - mind you) Just plain simple dress which falls under formal daily office wear. So at my time slot, I touch up bit of makeup...brush my hair and go to the allocated room. And - surprise surprise. I see there a huge table well arranged with all kinds of brushes, concealers, maskaras, foundations, lip gloss etc etc etc etc. I know you all can add to the list. There was a huge mirror with lights all around it. A well dressed make-up girl welcomed me there and escorted me to the elite chair :) (NOW....are you able to understand the reason - many of you who didnt agree earlier would surely be saying BIG YES now ) Ok So i sit there looking at all that "make-up stuff" amazingly meanwhile trying to put up a face as if I am a regular at getting such treatments - you know those celebrities kinds. For once i wondered - O God..i already have make up on - Now this girl is going to apply two more inches of it so as to make me look 2 inches fatter than what i already am. So I try to do small talk in between to take away my thougts and sound normal. She takes number of things one after the other...applies them on my face, eyes, lips... She tries to look from all angles If its looking perfect..then some more touching here and there...some more blush on may be...hmm...little darker lipgloss would be better. ok some touch up on hair...umm do i need some straightening or may be little curls would look nice...ok done..perfect...(I tell you this is all so damn good - you sitting there and kind of lost in your own thoughts while someone is treating you like a celebrity) As she says done - i can't stop smiling wide and trying hard to control that so as to not look stupid.

There comes the cameraman with an equally warm smile and loads of compliments for me. He explains me where I need to sit and where and how much to turn my head, where to look, how much to smile(HEHEHE..i was almost grinning once) He arranged my hair a bit and *CLICK*...one more *CLICK*. Perfect!!

It was all such a great feeling.

So now you all know what can make a woman feel so good :)

Family Tree

I am feeling quite angry and embarrassed with myself today....guess what..

I was filling some form for work and i had to answer to some secret questions for hints just in case i forget things like password etc. You knwo those hint questions in email accounts which help to retrieve forgotten passwords. Ok so there was a question - "What is the name of your maternal grandmom" And can you believe it - I j-u-s-t c-o-u-l-d n-o-t r-e-m-e-m-b-e-r :( I tried hard to...but the name would just not come to my mind. I could only remember what we used to call her - Badi Mummy. I felt so bad. Ok so i went through the list of other questions available which I could use there instead of that one. And Guess what - most questions there were about names of grand parents. I couldn't have felt more shameful. So I thought of writing down all names here and have a family tree - just for rememberance sake.

Imagination & Ideas

The building shown above is designed by Italian architect David Fisher, this building has floors that rotate independently. The building will constantly be changing shape.

You gotto see these...truly unbelievable.
I wonder how far can human imagination go and then make it possible too.
It's great.
Have a look ...

GREAT TALL BUILDINGS


Below is the a Full Moon building to be built in Azerbaijan.

The quest goes on....

Today I am going through quite mixed feelings... I want to remain quiet and not speak to anyone. i just don't feel like. Then on the other hand I am unable to find any reason for that. I am happy...without any special strong tension on mind. The dance from last night is still fresh in my mind and the feeling makes me smile everytime i think of it. I am trying to focus on work and wrap up some of it today (atleast thats the plan for the day) But yet something unknown to me is going on somewhere inside and not letting me feel good. Every few minutes i feel sad for no obvious explanation at all. I came in half hr late at work. Haven't spoken a single word for around 4 hrs now. Last word i said was BYE to my hubby when i left for work this morning. Strange mixed feelings.

It is weird how that "small-looking" area at the top of our body rules everything we do or feel. In case you are confused at what i am talking about - i am trying to refer to brain in my own style. We are such a slave to that "brain". Every action is ruled from there - the top most storey of the creation called body. Though; every now and then the tiny heart also tries to by-pass the judgements passed from there and take over the decision making role yet its not the boss. Heart keeps trying to give its own independent view about everything. It does succeed many times but then brain takes over quickly. The quest between heart and brain is going on ever since the body was created. And the fun part is this quest goes on in "every" single creation. And Brain always gets elected as the one who can have all the power.

I am also witnessing one such quest today. Brain says - focus on work, whats wrong..nothing is wrong around, everything seems to be fine, every related thing seems to be happy - so just concentrate, smile and work. But heart feels something else. Heart feels low. It says - its ok to be sad sometimes for no reason, its ok to not talk, its ok to embrace silence once in a while.

And I as a soul and a body am struggling for the heart and brain to reach a consensus.

Dance Baby Dance

I just had the most beautiful and happy hour in a long time. Guess what...

Prisha and I danced together for an haur on DAler Mehndi Punjabi numbers, old hindi remix songs and some more. It has been such great fun. We both laughed, danced, hugged, jumped and had a gala time. I would like to do this more often. Its been sooooo sooo wonderful a feeling.

Wish I could get more moments like this to experience such marvellous activities together.

Trying... again...

Today i just felt i should start writing...again. So i am back here ...once more...with determination to pen down something every other day atleast. First few days might have boring and negative posts mostly full of rantings..but i want to keep penning down something. Readers - Please bear with me!!

Life has been on a rought road for quite sometime now. Job world is shaky, personal life planet is not getting any attention, people around are behaving different...etc etc etc. And - dont know why - but all this affects me a bit too much. I have this horrible habit of keeping everything inside and suffocating myself from inside while people involved and responsible for that rejoice and have all the fun.

It hits me hard when i dont like someone's behaviour or a particular action but am absolutely unable to say anything. Evereyone - intentionally or unintentionally - gets his/her things done and I am left wondering what the hell am i doing.

Work is getting sick with every passing moment. I don't enjoy it any more and to such an extent that i have a pile of pending issues to work on but I am just unable to do anything about it inspite of knowing very well that it can cost me my job. I hate to be in such helpless situations.

My state-of-mind curve keeps changing... its more of a wave than just a curve.

I am trying to deal with it and get on more stable path..but things just refuse to happen in my favor. Or it's just me being too pessimistic.

Whatever the case - I have to do something about it.

100 Truths about me :)

1. Last beverage: Tea
2. Last phone call: A colleague
3. Last text message: this morning to a friend asking which train she is taking :) :)
4. Last song you listened to: uhh...dont even remember..its been efw days
5. Last time you cried: day before

HAVE YOU EVER...

1. Dated someone twice: Nopes
2. Been cheated on? Don't think so
3. Kissed someone & regretted it? never
4. lost someone special? Yes
5. Been depressed? Oh Yes...
6. Been drunk and threw up? Never

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

1.Pink
2.White
3.Red
4.Blue (Skyblue)

HAVE YOU:

1. Made new friends: Yes, Many
2. Fallen out of love: No
3. Laughed until you cried: Haha..Yes
4. Met someone who changed you: Don't know
5. Found out who your true friends were: Nopes..not till now..i take all my friends as true friends
6. Found out someone was talking about you: I so wish i could find out
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No :-)
8. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: almost all
9. How many kids do you want to have: For now ONE is perfect
10. Do you have any pets: NOOO..
11. Do you want to change your name: No..Why would I?
12. What did you do for your last birthday: nm..nm..nm..Like every other day..nothing special.
13. What time did you wake up today: 5:30 AM, Left from home at 6:20 AM. Had to reach work at 8
14. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleepingggg....zzzzz....and checking in between if my baby has duvet over her or she has again slipped out and is lying over it :)
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Getting slimmer...I mean the same as Monika's ..just changed the words to make it look different ..hehehehe
16. Last time you saw your father: Dec 5
17. What one thing d'you wish you could change about your life: The work I do. My Job.
19. Most visited webpage: iGOOGLE

PERSONAL

1. What's your name:Bharti
2. Nicknames: Gudia, gudde, Jana, Moto...
3. Zodiac sign: Aquarius
5. Male or female or transgendered: hahah...umm....Need to get tested ...lol... Absolutely Female
6. Elementary: NMS
7. School: BSF
8. Colleges: GVM GC
10. Hair color: Dark Brown
11. Long or short: Shoulder length
16. Height: 5' ... smaaallll... :(
17. Do you have a crush on someone? No
18. Ever been in love? Yes..
19. Piercings? Just one in each ear. I can't think of getting more.
20. Tattoos? Nopes...And Never
21. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :

22. First surgery: May 2005
23. First piercing: back when i was still too young to remember
24. First best friends: class 7th friend
26. First sport you loved: does hide and seek count ;-)
27. First pet: i made a kid bird pet for 2 days when its mom took her away was heart broken... thats what i remember but mom tells me i used to bring something or the other home all the time
28. First vacation: the one i remember goa with parents and then first independent with friends goa too :)
29. First concert: some shool stuff, dance i think
30. First crush: school president :)

RIGHT NOW:

49. Eating: Apricot
50. Drinkin: Water
52. I'm about to: finish this long questionnaire....hopefully...am half way now :)
53. Listening to: Key strokes from people around typing.
55. Waiting for: the weekend ..my bro is coming over from Bangalore for vacation...

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids? i have one very precious baby
59. Want to get married? I am - already. One time is Enough
60. Careers in mind? Painting/Digital designing

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

68. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
69. Hugs or kisses: Hugs..anytime
70. Shorter or taller: Tall
71. Older or Younger: Doesn't matter
72. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic...though i would also prefer spontaneously romantic
73. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both...
74. Sensitive or loud: : Sensitive
75. Hook-up or relationship: Relatioship...
76. Trouble maker or hesitant: haha...a Mix

HAVE YOU EVER :

78. Kissed a stranger: Nooo...
80. Lost glasses/contacts: Oh Yes...many times
81. Sex on first date: Not at all..
82. Broken someone's heart: May be...no clue
83. Had your own heart broken: nah..
84. Been arrested: Nopes
86. Turned someone down: Yes..few
87. Cried when someone died: Oh Yess...
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? hein??? I like my girl friends... or this ques has some hidden meaning?? :)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself: Somewhat
90. Miracles: YES
91. Love at first sight: Oh Yes...Absolutely
92. Heaven:Yes...
93. Santa Clause: yes...
95. Kiss on the first date? No
96. Angels: Yessss..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Yes yes yes
98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Should I reveal that??? No
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yess...

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Please pick it up if you like it...its' quite interesting.

Holi aayi re..

Holi aayi re holi...

and like every festival it brings along beautiful memories from childhood...
Nostalgia is on its height today!!

How we would try to get up early and start filling up water balloons, prepare packs of different colors which we can carry along on our round of the complex where we were living. We would go to each house, cover them with all sorts of colors and drag them out to join us for next target - the next neighbour. And meanwhile grabbing mouthwatering sweets - gujiyan... at every other house. We being kids would be running here and there..making lots noises, trying to save ourselves from balloons seen flying in different directions. On same occassion while someone would be hiding behind the corner of the wall...a splash would be there on his head..... hahah...yes a bucket full of colored or plain water from someone's balcony :) Putting loads of color in someone's hair was most annoying yet great fun. We would go on completely smudged in colors and water.... thankfully no hard stuff like greese etc was ever used there. By afternoon when everyone would be too tired ot rather would have not an inch uncovered with color, we woudl go home and take a shower. Mom would have kept buckets full of warm water ready for us to start the long scrubbing and cleaning process. Inspite of all the thorough cleaning, there would still be traces of some pink color left in ears and finger nails - which would take few days to go away.
Then some lovely lunch and more sweets. And after that a loooong peaceful afternoon sleep.

Where is all that fun now? Friends and family are far away from sharing those real happy moments of life. Now just an email or a message from some dear one gives enough pleasure. Thats what we unconsciously wait for. This is the way we share and celebrate these beautiful festivals. The real charm has vanished. The days of preparation is not required any more. We just need a reminder from our calendar that its "once-big-day" festival today. Now we only have memories. Memories - which would also fade away with time.

Added:
A collegue of mine just put a beautiful bunch of flowers on my desk. He got it as its his bday today but he is too shy to have them there on his desk. HAHAHA... so he gave them to me. And i am happy to see such beautiful white roses and purple fill ups. I take the flowers as holi colors for me. :)

A very Happy Holi to all of you. May your lives be full of beautiful colors!!

Ye bata de mujhe zindagi

Seems like this blog is mainly a repository of some of my favorite lyrics.
Here is another one...i love this one too.

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ye bata de mujhe zindagi
pyar ki raah ke humasafar, kis tarah ban gaye ajanabi
ye bata de mujhe jindagi
phool kyon saare murjha gaye, kis liye bujh gayi roshani

kal jo bahon mein thi , aur nigahon mein thi
ab woh garmi kahan kho gayi
na woh andaaz hai naa woh aawaz hai
ab wo narmee kahan kho gayi

bewafa tum nahi , bewafa hum nahi
fir woh jazbaat kyon so gaye..
pyar tum ko bhi hai, pyar hum ko bhi hai
faasle fir yeh kyon ho gaye

Yeh bata de mujhe zindagi....

Waqt nahin...

Read it somwhere on internbet..had to share it!!

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Har Khushi Hai Logon Ke Daman Mein,
Par Ek Hansi Ke Liye Waqt Nahi.
Din Raat Daudti Duniya Mein,
Zindagi Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.

Maa Ki Loree Ka Ehsaas To Hai,
Par Maa Ko Maa Kehne Ka Waqt Nahi.
Saare Rishton Ko To Hum Maar Chuke,
Ab Unhe Dafnane Ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.

Saare Naam Mobile Mein Hain,
Par Dosti Ke Lye Waqt Nahi.
Gairon Ki Kya Baat Karen,
Jab Apno Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.

Aankhon Me Hai Neend Badee,
Par Sone Ka Waqt Nahi.
Dil Hai Ghamon Se Bhara Hua,
Par Rone Ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.

Paison Ki Daud Me Aise Daude,
Ki Thakne Ka Bhi Waqt Nahi.
Paraye Ehsason Ki Kya Kadr Karein,
Jab Apane Sapno Ke Liye Hi Waqt Nahi.

Tu Hi Bata E Zindagi,
Iss Zindagi Ka Kya Hoga,
Ki Har Pal Marne Walon Ko,
Jeene Ke Liye Bhi Waqt Nahi