Wash away...

Glass roof...

And falling rain

Morning silence..

And the cold wind

unlocking the memories

rusted smiles
dried tears
blurred vision
faded moments
unclear whispers

Fall down O drops
erase away
wash away those memories
elope
take along
moments
the thoughts
vanish.
in flowing water
or
unknown skies

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Pain

Can we deal with pain?

Pain of any kind and 

pain for any reason. 

Pain of being away from loved ones, 

pain of missing someone, 

pain of longing to be with someone, 

pain of craving love, 

pain of feeling helpless in certain situations, 

pain of not being able to give enough, 

pain of not being enough, pain of feeling inadequate, 

pain of being a failure, 

pain of seeing dreams getting shatteted, 

pain of being unreachable,  

pain of falling again & again, 

pain of not being able to rise, 

pain of living,

pain of life dragging past. 

To deal or let it be. 

To soothen it or scratch it. 

To talk or hide it all away

To accept it or ignore it. 

To seek help or turn away. 

To face it or bow down. 

To live or to survive. 

Priorities

Priorities. 

We all live with priorities. Some unsaid. Some well thought about. Some forced upon us. 

How does one prioritize! Whats the criteria! How does one compare! A top priority for me might not be in your list at all. 

How do we prioritize between work & family, family & friends, friends & work..... And so on. How do we prioritize between self & home, health & our kids and so on...

We cannot not give priority to any of these. Each one is at the top of the list in individuality. But what if we have to choose?! And what if I choose one and expect the same from you. But because our priorities differ - how do i react? Is forcing my priority on you - ok? Or just accepting yours and ignoring my own is ok? Or is there always a mid-way? 

In any situation there will be someone hurt & left sad. There will be one amongst us feeling less. 

And what if we cannot choose one and end up doing nothing about any of them! Guilt will take over. There is no escape. 

Life will always be a series of confusions and more confusions. No wonder no one comes out alive. :) 

Ek pyaar ka nagma hai...

Ek pyaar kaa naghamaa hai, maujon ki ravaani hai  Zindagi aur kuchh bhi nahin, teri meri kahaani hai...  Kuchh paakar khonaa hai, kuchh khokar paanaa hai Jeevan ka matalab to, aanaa aur jaanaa hai Do pal ke jeevan se, ek umr churaani hai Zindagi aur kuchh bhi nahin, teri meri kahaani hai  Ek pyaar ka naghamaa hai Tu dhaar hai nadiyaa ki, main teraa kinaaraa hoon Tu meraa sahaaraa hai, main teraa sahaaraa hoon Aankhon men samandar hai, aashaaon ka paani hai Zindagi aur kuchh bhi nahin, teri meri kahaani hai  Ek pyaar kaa naghamaa hai Toofaan to aanaa hai, aakar chale jaanaa hai Baadal hai ye kuchh pal kaa, chhaakar dhal jaanaa hai Parachhaainyaan rah jaatin, rah jaati nishaani hai Zindagi aur kuchh bhi nahin, teri meri kahaani hai  Ek pyaar kaa naghamaa hai

http://youtu.be/w7UEjGSCD8U

I hope you know...

I hope you know...
I love you with all my heart and soul.
I hope you know...
you mean the life to me
and to many others
I hope you know...
when you are sad,
I strive for your happiness.
I hope you know...
no matter what,
I’m here for you and...
intend on staying forever.
I hope you know...
I adore you without restraints,
...and this will never change.
I hope you know...
if I could ever do anything
to make your life happier,
Done - it will be - without a blink
I hope you know...
everlasting peace and smiles
if I find...I will get those for you
...in exchange for my life....


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If - BY RUDYARD KIPLING

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;   
If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,   
Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,   
And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!

Khoj

Roshni mein dhoonda
Andheere mein dhoonda
Raat mein jo yaad aayi
toh chaand taaron mein dhoonda
khawab mein milne kee umeed thi
par khawab dekhna bhool gaya hun
yeh dil-e-chaman hee viraan tha
de na paya panah tujhe wahan bhi


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Lautna hai mujhe...

Teri mehfil mein aana na ho payega
Teri yaad ka nasha utaray bina
Ab akela mujhe chor de ae zindagi
Udta parinda banna chahta hun mein
Hai udna mujhe ab hawaon ke saath
Bas humraahi apna hee banna mujhe
utrega tabhi shayad nasha tere pyaar ka
yaadon mein gam ka andaaz badlega
yeh aakhen phir namm na hongi
aur suroor-e-zindagi phir beintehaa hoga
tab laut ke aayengay hum teri ibadat mein
teri ruh se guftagu abhi baki jo hai


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Ponder

Two very thought provoking quotes i read today...

Reference Book : The History of Love by Nicole Krauss

“Once upon a time there was a boy who loved a girl, and her laughter was a question he wanted to spend his whole life answering.” 

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“There are two types of people in the world: those who prefer to be sad among others, and those who prefer to be sad alone.”

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Hope

Tumhe jaate hue dekha har pal
Dil ne umeed na chori tere rukne kee

Dil baar baar toota par dua kam na hue
ab aise mein tumhe apna samjhun ya paraya


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People

People drive you crazy. They always will.
Its not the situations. Its not the circumstances. Its not the moments. Its not the life. Its PEOPLE.

People make sure they drive you crazy in whichever way possible.

You fall in love with someone and go crazy.
You pick a fight with someone and go crazy.
You argue and go crazy.
You miss someone and go crazy.
You expect an answer from someone and when it doesn't come quickly, you go crazy.
You get an answer to your questions and the answers drive you crazy.

There is just no running away.
People are every where. They are all  around. You will be with one every moment and keep getting crazy.


Love crazy to Live Crazy!!

Bucket List before I turn 40 :)

5 Things to kick off the list before I turn 40 :)

1. An all alone holiday

2. Run a 5K

3. Learn to Swim

4. Learn to Drive

5. Start painting again and Gift a painting to a dear person


So here it is - I let this out in Universe to make it happen!!

Amen!!

Short n sweet

सुनने में लगें चाहे कितनी अनूठी
पर बानंधती हैं दिलों को सिर्फ़
बातें छोटी छोटी

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No matter how trivial something sounds 
but its only these small things that bind our hearts

People drive us crazy

"Strange as it may seem, other people are not nearly as committed to our happiness as we are. In fact, sometimes they seem like they're on a mission to make us miserable! There's always that one person. The one who hijacks your emotions and makes you crazy. The one who seems to thrive on drama. If you could just "fix" that person, everything would be better. But we can't fix other people--we can only make choices about ourselves. "

~ From the book "People can't drive you crazy if you don't give them the keys" By Mike Bechtle 

kyun?

kyun tujhe har pal mein yaad karun
kyun dil se kabhi juda na karun
kya hai jo kheenche mujhe uss aur
lafzon mein kaise byaan mein karun

kyun har dua mein tera naam lun
kyun har khushi mein tujhe sang maangu
kyun har aansun mein dil aah bhare
khud ko kya kehke samzhaya karun

kyun har pal ka ehsaas hai yeh
kyun haar raat ka khawaab hai yeh
kaise sulzhaun yeh paheli mein
har khawaab lagta naya sa kyun

kyun kuch kehna mushkil lage
phir bhi kehna khatam na ho...
kyun tujhe mein itna yaad karun...
kyun tujhse mein itna pyaar karun...


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Kuch Kaho Kuch Bolo Na

Kuch Kaho Kuch Bolo Na
Yeh khamoshi choro na
Yun hee saath chalna hai
kuch na kuch tum bolo na

Sapne sang hum dono ke
yeh dhun bhi hai milijuli
kya kehti yeh dil kee awaaz
kuch toh tum ab bolo na

Chaar kadam to chal hee liye
Baki chaar bhi chal lenge
Yun haath mera thama hai
Toh kuch na kuch tum bolo na

Roothi mein aur roothe tum
Waqt Nokjhok mein nikal chala
Hein to phir bhi dil se saath
Kya kehte ho kuch bolo na

Kuch Kaho kuch bolo na
Yeh Khamoshi choro na...


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Unspeakable memories

I lie back and ponder
of grateful moments
of miraculous people
of generous smiles

I cry and I smile
over happy memories
heavy moments
and bighearted souls

I think about you
today...
Thought about you
yesterday
and day before

About keepsake memories
and heartfelt silence
Speaking your name
with picture in heart.

I laugh and I think
What greater thing is there
to strengthen each other
and rest in that feel

I drown in the sorrow,
and in all the pain,
longing to be with each other
in silent, unspeakable memories.

As my eyes open
& this Soul awakens...
with a heart full of love
I choose to live in present
and be ready for tomorrow!

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Letter to sibling (Letter - 8)

Dear dear Big brother,

I searched & searched for something

To say to you today... But nothing was enough and no words said it the way i wanted to say. 

I wrote. I deleted. I remembered. I cherished. I laughed. I felt sad. 

Each one came as a flash back of happy life gone past. 

You are very special to me 

And i thank and pray for this special gift i got as a brother like you. 

The countless fights & attempts to annoy each other. Taking you for a ride on my back. Hitting you hard while you would not budge. Letting me play cricket in your boys' group. Enjoying evening snack made by you... Those are some cherished memories of having yummy homemade cutlets & tikkis made by you. 

Your ever eager attempt at annoying me by touching my plate with the tip of yoghurt filled spoon. You making fun of my friends. 

And that one week when you came home from college just to teach me maths before class 12th board exam. For that I owe you every penny i have earned till now :)

Your always positive attitude & convincing power. Your google like capabilities... A one stop shop for every information in the world :)

Your happiness on my wedding. Though I must ask you why were you so happy to see me go :) :) 

How you decorated all around with flowers & danced away till your feet were swollen & blistered yet you were smiling wide. 

I have only happy memories when i think of you. And i will treasure them forever. 

We dont see each other often now nor do we talk much. But you are always on my mind and i think about you every single day. 

When you said - "I will support you in everything without asking any questions" I knew i could not have been more blessed. 

Thanks for being a part of my life. Thanks for being that big brother every little girl wishes to have. 

I love you & i miss you!

Your little sister. 

Today

Today

Pat yourself

Few times extra

Care for self

A little more sweetly

Talk to yourself

A little more calmly

Smile at everyone

A little too often

Sparkle n shine

A little more brightly

Share a joke

With a little more joy

Begin a task

With a little more faith

Love yourself 

Just a little more

Live this day

Just a little more merrily

Life goes on...

An interesting metaphor i noticed this morning while sitting in bus for my usual commute to work.

Our life is also like a bus journey.

We get ready and take on the journey with a destination which only we have in our mind. We sit and ponder over each passing phase. Some of these phases we simply miss being lost in our own thoughts. At times we enjoy the views flashing past.

On the way we meet lots of fellow passengers travelling like us through life.
We share smiles with some. And we ignore some. We join one of these and share the space with an unsaid understanding of not to intrude in each other's space. Yet often we need to make this clear to some who  think they can enter our space and be part of our journey. At times this needs to be done with a stern face and tough mind. But its important. We dont give too many thoughts to this. We react as it seems befitting that moment. 

In this process sometimes we also connect with few. We share moments and thoughts and admire the surroundings a bit more. We make memories only to be put somewhere at the back of our minds and move on.
Some fellow passengers become part of our life for a certain phase and others as far as whole life. We share mutual feelings with those who travel with us longer. We share emotions like delays, being stuck, the sunny or gray weather at times, the thrill of speed or even the suffocation of the space.

At times the space seems like choking us... Giving us nausea too. We feel like this is the end of it. But we hang in there telling ourselves- "Little bit more, just a little bit more". Meanwhile longing for that gush of fresh air at every halt. 

A new memory, a new moment, a new emotion - all on the journey called life. 

Thus - Life goes on.....

Why complicate life!

Na jaane kaun hai!

Chalte chalte aksar yeh khayal aaya hai

Na jaane kaun hai jo chupke se dekh raha hai

Har kadam saath de raha hai

Bina awaaz bina chuye rah dikha raha hai 

Pal pal mein simat rahi ho zindagi jaise

Na jaane kaun hai jo hisaab laga raha hai

Har pal har saans ko jaise

Bin bataye bin pooche chala raha ho jaise

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Life's crisis or human nature?!

Its a post i read long time back and could relate to it a lot. I read it again today and can still relate to it so much. 

We grow but out fears and doubts remain somewhat the same. We laugh we cry but our heart still yearns for something else always....

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when we stop moving along with the main crowd and start realizing that there are many things about ourself that we didn't know and may not like. 

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe,those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too,and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere,but that they are as confused as you. 

You look at wat ur studyin or ur job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. 

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. 

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. 

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. 

Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. 

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! 

What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. 

All those who are in their thirty-something ... maybe it will help them feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion... 

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Someone somewhere...

Ponder! Think! Smile!

“Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.”

It can only be a dream.

Yes this is a Dream. 

Dream I am living. 

Dream that I am dreading will end soon & throw me back in the hands of reality. 

To be tossed & turned ... To be shaken... To be shattered into million pieces. 

It can only be a dream....

Dream which gives hope. 

Dream which is showering love. 

Dream where you hold my hand & tell me Everything will be ok. 

Dream where you are walking besides me on this rough road. 

Dream where I am air & you are the musician...playing the most melodious tunes for me to flow freely & dance...

Dream where true love is all that matters. 

Dream where each other's presence is what gives life. 

Yes ... It can only be a dream. 

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“You might have loved me, if you had known me. If you had ever known my mind. If you would have walked through my dreams and memories. Who knows what treasures you might have found. Yes, you might have loved me. If you had only taken the time.”

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While...

While walking on an unknown path

Looking nowhere 

I seek you i search you

While living in the strange world

Breathing just enough

I heart you i inhale you

While trying to forget it all

Holding tight few

I cherish you i nourish you

While seeping in my own tears 

Crying nomore

I catch you I carry you

While drifting into the dreamworld

Hoping nomore

I hold you i treasure you

While forgetting this life

Living nomore

I live you i love you

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If you are interested in more poetry here - here is the link

Letter to the friendliest person you know (Letter - 7)

Dear friend.."S"

I don't think I ever wrote any letter to you...not even an email. But today i want to... For reasons unknown & for thoughts popping up.

We have known each other for roughly 17-18 yrs now and shared sorrows & happiness. During all these years we have been in touch off and on.We have been close but then lost touch completely for yrs and then got back in touch only to begin where we left. The gap was never felt even if its was years long each time. And that has only been possible because of your super sweet friendly aura.

I remember your smiling face along with your super sharp memory. Your humane nature, your always helping attitude, your spiritual strengths and your belief in kindness.

The affection & kindness you still shower me with is beyond measure. 

We haven't seen each other for almost 13 yrs now yet it doesn't feel so. 

You amaze me with things like still having my comb from 13 yrs ago, remembering my choice of sari ....telling your kids about me as their masi. :) and many more. 

I sincerely thank you for the care & comfort you gave me through your words in time of need. Your belief in my strengths helped me deal with tough times. 

Thanks - today & always!

Love,

B

Reminders for self

“Act happy, feel happy, be happy, without a reason in the world. Then you can love, and do what you will.”

 ~Dan millman

“If you don't get what you want, you suffer; if you get what you don't want, you suffer; even when you get exactly what you want, you still suffer because you can't hold on to it forever. Your mind is your predicament. It wants to be free of change. Free of pain, free of the obligations of life and death. But change is a law, and no amount of pretending will alter that reality.” ~Dan millman

http://thinkexist.com/quotes/dan_millman/

“When we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not ready. The challenge will not wait. Life does not look back. A week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny.” ~Paulo Coelho
http://thinkexist.com/quotes/paulo_coelho/

I Wish

“This is my wish for you: 

Comfort on difficult days, 

smiles when sadness intrudes, 

rainbows to follow the clouds, 

laughter to kiss your lips, 

sunsets to warm your heart, 

hugs when spirits sag, 

beauty for your eyes to see, 

friendships to brighten your being, 

faith so that you can believe, 

confidence for when you doubt, 

courage to know yourself, 

patience to accept the truth, 

Love to complete your life.”

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Disclaimer : Even though it says exactly what i have in mind and wish for yet this is not written and composed by me.  If you claim its written by you and want it to be removed or add credits - I would be happy to do so. 

The thoughtful night

The deep slumper night

Crossing darkness was a fight

Tossed n turned a million times over

Nothing was setting it right

Thoughts rushed allover

Ending into a jigsaw puzzle

The pieces unmatached

And the story got nowhere

The fight of finding oneself

Overtook the creation of self

In the gentle stillness of night

The pain took over 

Many questions asked

Many answers searched

This restless heart pounded hard

Reconciling sorrows

Yet keeping the faith

....

Pray and be free

Hope and be braver

Trust and Love calmly ...

And this too shall pass!! 

Kya Tum Bhi?

Kya Tum Bhi ?

Shaam Ki Dehleez Pe

Aas ka Deep jalatay Ho,

Aur

Kisi Aawara Patte ki Aahat Par

Darwaze ki Taraf Bhaage Jatay ho,

Kya Tum Bhi ?

Dard Chupane Ki Koshish karte karte

Aksar Thak se jatay ho

Aur bina Wajah muskuratay ho

Kya Tum Bhi ?

Neend se pehle palkon per

dhairon khwab sjatay ho

ya phir bister per lait kar 

rote rote so jatay ho

Kya Tum Bhi? 

(~Faisal)

Forever n ever

This needs to be saved and said forever n ever. 

Love this from - The Fault in our Stars (John Green)

A dream. A wish.

Festivals. Celebrations. Happiness. Sharing. Caring. Loving. 

Thats the spirit of the season. 

The sparkle of lights

And chill in air

Makes a perfect atmosphere to feel cozy

And share smiles with your loved ones. 

Distance can be a big dampner at such times. It has been for many years now and was no different this season.  

This time it felt even emptier than ever. 

But then step in some God sent divine souls. 

They make you smile. They make you laugh. They make you forget about mundane life. They listen. They shower love. They make life seem like a celebration. No distance, no gap, no mode, nothing becomes a hinderance. 

They stay with you when the world seems aloof. They give you the perfect peppy talk without overdoing it to the level of preaching. They give you memories to last forever. They give to enough reasons to smile & be thankful. 

How this sounds like a dream world! But its as true as these falling rain drops, as the hide n seek that the sun is playing, as the fluffy clouds are floating around freely! 

It is not just a moment. Its an experience. It can only be felt ... With a true open heart. 

As with every ray of light there looms the fear of dark clouds covering it up, so is the fear in this heart. This heart is scared to think this might just be a passing phase. This soul is petrified of being left alone soon again. This mind reckons this dream would end as soon as i open my eyes. 

So i let out this wish in this universe... 

O universe - please let these soulful content moments become days, days become weeks and weeks become years and years....let it be a Never ending dream !!

Letter to Someone You miss the most (Letter - 6)

My dear dear dear "P"

You have been a part of my life for pretty much whole of it. We developed this bond of ours over the years and it has only gone stronger. I think that's how it is in every such relationship.

I look forward to talking to you. I look forward to your mail or call.

You are younger than me but my strongest support each time I am in a dip and need a push to stand up again. You are much more stable in your thoughts and stronger in dealing with life's challenges. I admire you for that.

Sometimes I sit and wonder how did you turn out like that. How do you do it!
I know you have your own share of worries to deal with...but its rarely that I see you feeling so down and negative. I love your positivity.

Your hardworking attitude and "You can do it" will is obvious. No wonder that inspite of being the youngest of us you have emerged as the best! There is not second thought about that.

I must confess that sometimes I am envious of you for being so sorted and maintaining a stable head on your shoulders. For never giving up in any situation. For being there for everyone always.

You are an excellent wife, a truly loving mom, a wonderful daughter and daughter-in-law.....and THE BEST sister on  can ask for.

Stay blessed, Stay Happy, Keep Smiling!

I Miss You!!
I Miss chatting with you....just talking about anything under the sun.  I Miss going out for shopping together with you. I Miss cooking together and sharing recipes ... I Miss Having non stop discussion through the night. I Miss sharing clothes, sharing makeup, sharing jewellery....

I Miss seeing our kids bond and become like best friends.

I Miss a lot....every day, every moment!

I Miss YOU!

Lots of love always
Me

Letter to Someone I've drifted away from (Letter - 5)

My dear dear pal "R" from once upon a time...

I have to start this letter by saying "I miss you" Because that's the best thing that can summarize what I feel.

You were the first one I met when I started a new journey and we ended up spending 3 years together...sharing smiles and tears. We shared our life's best kept secrets.

We were different at so many levels yet the friendship grew stronger. Our views and thoughts didn't match yet we were there for each other. We have given endless lectures to each other about life. We have been each other's support pillar.

Then life moved on and we started walking in different directions...Sometimes we turned back and looked at each other...smiling and reminiscing in past gaiety. But we kept moving away ...and before we knew we had drifted far enough to see each other's smile or tear.

I think we both tried...but life had taken its course for good.

I have no regrets. We were best friends  and have countless happy memories for the rest of our lives. I have infinite memories from those college and hostel days ...

Thanks to social media we atleast have a tab on whats going on in each other's life. I guess that's enough to be thankful for now.

May you have a happy life with that beautiful son of yours. Someday do tell him about one of his so-called masis...His Aunt- Me!

With many happy memories
your friend

Letter to my best friend (Letter - 4)

Dear friend,

I must begin with thanking you for being there in my life. For bringing my faith back in friendship. For adding smiles to my otherwise mundane days. For Listening to my senseless blabber. For sharing secrets. For offering a shoulder to cry on.

I am forever indebted.

Thanks for the thoughtfulness always.

Thanks for being a friend far away yet so close.

This world becomes worth living because of gems like you.

You strengthen faith in humanity.

You strengthen belief in love.

A million thanks to you everyday...

Please be the same...keep smiling and be happy.
May your life be always rich with happy moments.

May you get the life you most deserve.

Much love,
Your friend...

Letter to Dreams (Letter -3)

Dreams are the reality
Dreams the the truth
Dreams are the facts

We live because of dreams...
without dreams we just survive.

My Dear Dreams,

How I have looked forward to meeting you and then making it a point to remember you when i wake up. You bring pleasure, you bring boundless happiness and sometimes you bring tears too. You are the only one with whom I cry my heart out, I run away to places I most desire to go, I meet people I miss every single moment, I live moments that give most pleasure.

What would my life be without you!

Every night I look forward to drifting in my fantasy world with you.
You give me hope. You give me faith.

You show me the balance of life....a day can be both full of smiles and tears.

I thank you for being part of my life. For visiting me so often and letting me be me and yet taking away with you all that was not necessary for me to take to my life on the other side of sleep.

O dreams O dear dreams...come visit and strengthen everyone's faith in future...bring hope and bring life.

May you grow and flourish to become reality...and new ones be born...

With Much faith
Me.

Letter to "don't know whom" (Letter - 2)

Letter to "don't know whom"

I don't know you. I don't even know if you exist. I just know that i want to talk to someone. Someone unknown, someone non-existent, someone who can listen and then vanish in thin air.

Relationship bumps, financial bumps, emotional bumps, health bumps...the ride has been very very bumpy so far. At times i have enjoyed it and other times it has left me angered and depressed.

Every time I have collected myself and bounced back to life. At times it has been hard and I almost gave up. Then by coincidence or luck or chance or support from universe I come across something which gets me back in spirits. Sometimes it has been a book, sometimes just few liners i read somewhere randomly, few times it has been some random conversation on radio or a movie I am watching. few times it has also been some friends calling/chatting and saying just the right things I needed to hear at that time.
I can only call this the power of universe.

I have read this many times now to start believing with all my heart -

If you really desire something put it out in universe with all honesty and the universe will make sure you get it.

It works - ALWAYS!!

And if you think it hasn't worked - think again about it. Most of the times when we ask for something(s) we have a hint of self-doubt there. We are not sure it can happen. But we still ask.

Believe! Believe from all yoru heart! Believe it can happen and then ask the universe.

And if you believe, you will not leave any stone unturned to make it happen. That's the power of universe. The universe will make sure you get surrounded by all positive forces to make it happen.

So today with my true heart and soul I feel happy. I feel content. I feel blessed.

Thanks universe!!

Letter to my Grandma (Letter 1 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to)

Dear Grandma (mata - as we all used to call her)

It's been 12 yrs since you left for the heavenly abode. (And i never realized its that long...i had to count to be sure it was 12 years) I think about you quite often. And I miss you.

I often think about our winter trips to your house. How I enjoyed going with you to Gurudwara every morning. And getting prasad there. How you would try to get us extra halwa because we loved it. Your trip to sabzi mandi on the way back....and your awesome bargaining and calculation skills. You never ever went to school or was never taught maths in any form yet I never saw you making a mistake of a single penny.
I also miss those small treats you will get us on the way back.

Later when you started living with us in Jammu - While growing up we used to accompany you to mandir every evening. And how you would treat us to golgappas on every round. Believe me those are my only happy memories of enjoying golgappas.
I also just realised how mandir or gurudwara didn't make any difference to your religious beliefs and faith. There was no question ever about why you would go to either place. Your faith in the supreme power was all that was important. That also reminds me of all the prayers you would chant every morning while taking bath and how you would thank each Day and God with a beautiful one liner of yours.

I know at times I have not been that nice and sweet a grand child with you. I picked fights with you, got upset, got angry and many a times perhaps insulted you too. I am really really sorry about all that. Though i know any amount of sorry won't be enough.

Inspite of love hate relationship we had - I am most thankful that I was there with you in your last days. Being able to take care of you - cleaning you, combing your hair, helping you eat. That was the least i could do. I thank God for giving me that opportunity. And I Thank God for your love and affection always...

Keep your hand of blessings on us always!

May you rest in peace always.
Much love and regards
Your granddaughter

A New challenge

I came across this and found it very interesting. I feel like doing it. I am not sure how many i will be able to write but I will try. I am not sure how comfortable I will be to share them here but I would still write. So here is the Challenge...Let me know if you are doing it too!

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30 DAY LETTER CHALLENGE

Write a letter a day for 30 days
The List

• 1 - Your Best Friend
• 2 - Your Crush
• 3 - Your parents
• 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
• 5 - Your dreams
• 6 - A stranger
• 7 - Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
• 8 - Your favourite internet friend
• 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
• 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to
• 11 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
• 12 - The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
• 13 - Someone you wish could forgive you
• 14 - Someone you've drifted away from
• 15 - The person you miss the most
• 16 - Someone that's not in your state/country
• 17 - Someone from your childhood
• 18 - The person that you wish you could be
• 19 - Someone that pesters your mind-good or bad
• 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest
• 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
• 22 - Someone you want to give a second chance to
• 23 - The last person you kissed
• 24 - The person that gave you your favourite memory
• 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
• 26 - The last person you made a pinky promise to
• 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one
• 28 - Someone that changed your life
• 29 - The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
• 30 - Your reflection in the mirror

Source - http://30daychallenges.net/challenges/30-day-letter-challenge

Needs?

The talks

the chat

the gossip

the smiles

I miss them all

with you 

my dear friend

The fights

the drives

the movies

the food

I want it all

to revive

and last

The gifts

the cards

the calls

the mails

I wish for it all

to come back

for all

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© 2014 Life Begins. Please DO NOT COPY.

The pumpkin exploded

It was the moment. The moment of pride. The whole family was waiting for it. The smiles were shared. Everyone had gathered. It was going to be a moment to remember forever. It was something everyone had been looking forward too. The family had money. The family had fame. The family had everything but education. It felt everyone came together just for this day.

And the list was being read. names called.

They waited. 

Their son's name was not there. He has not passed the exam - again. 
The pride of parents exploded like a pumpkin, covering everyone with shattered mess.

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Day 2 : Drabble Week

Prompt : The Pumpkin Exploded

Power of a drop

She was the life

She was the heartbeat

She kept it going

She kept it alive

Life looked at her

And smiled

Each touch was divine

Each glimpse was heavenly

She was the binding thread

A thread so tough

Yet a thread so silky

The caring hands

And the loving looks

It all made life worth it

Until one day

Just a drop of water changed life

She slipped and fell on her rear

Never to get up again

The thread slipped away

Lives got shattered. 

Smiles died away

Love became a cherished memory

Their mom was no more! 

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Day 1 : Drabble Week

Prompt : When she fell on her rear

Drabble Week - A New Challenge

Drabble Week it so going be... from June 30 till July 6 and as always i have taken up the challenge.

I take up challenges and fail....but i still keep taking up new ones with the hope of finishing one someday. Positive thinking at its best - isn't it?

So I have decided to go for 100-words posts. ( 55 seems too less to me once i start writing :) ) I am just not skilled enough to wrap up a story in 55 words. Let me see what i do in 100.

Here is the list of prompts for 100-words!

For the 100-word posts:
Day 1- She fell flat on her rear
Day 2- The pumpkin exploded
Day 3- If I were an animal
Day 4- Never send a man to do a woman's job
Day 5- Talking vessels
Day 6- Suddenly, it moved...
Day 7- Candy floss memories

To check out more or join the fun - check out - Drabble Week on FB